‘When the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly’

“The transformation from chrysalis can take weeks, months or even years – mine took one year. And although I have become this person, I’m still in the midst of a larger transformation, one that I won’t recognise until I look back at me now and say ‘who was that girl?’ We are constantly evolving; I suppose I have always known that, but because I always knew that, I feared stopping, and it is ironic that it was only when I finally stopped that I moved the most. I know now that we never truly stop, our journey is never complete, because we will continue to flourish – just as when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.” Cecelia Ahern, The Year I Met You

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Starting my first post with a quote might seem like a bit of a cop out – a cheat to ease me into a bare canvas. Maybe it is but it’s also significant. It’s a quote from my favourite author, Cecelia Ahern, taken from one of her more recent books, The Year I Met You.

Why is this collection of words noteworthy?

In July I was diagnosed with breast cancer. The following months were a whirl of operations, hospital visits and treatments. I felt like I was trapped in a bubble, feeling my way through augmented reality. It’s only now, nearing the end of my chemotherapy treatment that I’m beginning to see things clearly and fully digest what’s been happening and what’s going to happen.

As a result of this newfound clarity, I’ve been able to think about who I want to be and what I want to achieve with this life I’m lucky to have. In essence, I’m beginning my own transformation from chrysalis.

One positive I want to come from my experience is a blog; if I can share my experience and make things just a little easier for other young whippersnappers going through cancer diagnosis and treatment then I’ve achieved something huge.

That said, I’m not 100% sure what the blog is going to become – what it’s going to look like and how it’s going to be organised. I’ve considered not posting until I’ve figured this out but who cares that there’s no fancy design or integrated twitter feed right now. What matters is it’s going to grow, evolve, metamophasise into something. What matters is I’ve made a start, just as I’m making a start on my journey to recovery.

2016 is going to be the year I create and nurture my own blog, it’s also going to be the beginning of my transformation from a chrysalis. It might take weeks, months or even years but I’m making a start.

Just as when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly…

 

 

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Hi, I’m Becky. Welcome to PinkieJones. I started this blog to share my thoughts and learnings from my breast cancer treatment. Hopefully you'll find the site informative but reassuring that you're not alone in your cancer journey. If there's a particular topic you'd like me to cover, let me know and I'll get on the case. If you want to get in touch, please do - either comment below one of my articles, tweet me or email pinkiejones@hotmail.co.uk Sending you love and light Becky xx

2 thoughts on “‘When the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly’”

  1. Congratulations Becky!! beautiful and moving blog! What a journey you’ve been on… I’m so pleased you’ve finally completed your last cycle of chemo. Your blog I am certain will help other young girls about to embark on a similar journey of the unpredictable interuption to ones life that cancer and chemotherapy inevitably bring.. Enjoy that pint of Prosecco X

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    1. Thanks so much Catherine. I’m so thankful you’ve been here for mum and I. You’ve been a huge support and your advice has been spot on – thank you. You and Becky do an amazing job – I admire you both xx

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